Finding Words Again

I'm rediscovering how to freely express myself through words. I used to have no problem jotting my thoughts down and letting the world know what it was I was passionate about, who the inner Emily was. Over time however, this started to trickle down to less and less, why was it that I had so much to say before , so much to share, and then to become such a private person? My mind was still working over-time as I overanalyze just about everything, and think myself crazy, but I did not feel the need anymore to share my ever consuming thoughts. After some time I realized that those that once knew me now had no idea who I was. Communication is key and the lack of this creates a barrier. People love to talk about themselves and they love to be listened to, It is our human nature to desire to be heard and cared for. I love to listen, so I have let people talk about their stories, feelings, families, and passions, and I get the amazing opportunity to learn from them. If their interest in my affairs isn't reciprocated, why push the matter? As time went on I realized that the lack of reciprocation was more predominant than I had thought. Conversations began to become more one-sided with myself asking all of the questions. I was not complaining, as I was growing listening to each person. People are fascinating creatures, all with their own unique stories, perspectives, passions, knowledge, and experiences. Each person I love so deeply because we are all children of the same God and he loves each of us to unfathomable heights, to not love a person would simply be disrespect for a masterpiece. 
What I did not realize was that by halting my communication I was creating a barrier to be able to connect on a deeper level with people. Maybe they will not always ask, but that doesn't necessarily mean that they are not interested. Some of the individuals that I enjoy talking to the most will freely give their thoughts, feelings, and perspectives and I don't need to ask. It's all so interesting. It's a journey of growth and I'm glad that I can realize where it is I can improve and always become a better version of myself. Step one, this blog. It is challenging to write my thoughts and feelings and think that someone may be reading them. It is a realm in which I am vulnerable, opening myself up to the world, but it is liberating all the same. 
What comes to mind is the analogy of sharing a testimony or telling someone why you believe what you believe; you never know if the way that you can describe something in the way that someone will understand it. You could dramatically affect someone's life, simply by sharing what you know or what you believe, it may be just what they needed to hear or how they needed to hear it, but you cannot be an instrument to help others if what is in your mind and in your heart goes unsaid.